last years miscarriage 2010 ~~ 2 days before christmas

Last year I miscarried I came out of hospital 2 days before Christmas, even though Christmas was really fab, there was a huge whole and a loss, as I still felt pregnant morning sickness etc, smells with certain things jeans where tight ! It was so strange x

I went into hospital with the idea of straight down the theater and back out the same day, this wasn't how the hospital saw it at all, I was seen by a doctor, who then asked the nurse to start me on some tables, doctor looked at me and said "This was to help get rid of the product" product what product ~ she meant the baby I was pregnant but granted it hadn't grown but in my head it was still our baby. I was given a Tampax with a table on the end, & told to use it DIY ~~ this is how its done as its against the doctors religion for them to it ? I also go told to walk about as this would help the product come away (If I heard this word one more time I was going to scream)

I walked up & down the corridors where the delivery wards where (as my room was next door) I could hear baby's being born & crying too.
This went on for 2 days the pain was really sharp stabbing pains too awful, at least I had my wonderful hubby with me, hubby set me up with my TV, juice, sweets, crisps and anything else I wanted he was my rock.
Following morning they came in with toast dropped it on the floor picked it up and put it back on the plate, looked at me and said nothing ! I sat laughing the food was like slops & would probably get better food in tesco's bin !

Lovely Maria Divine blog.

I had the most amazing online support & the most virtual hugs anyone could ever get from my amazing twitter family, no one could believe I was still tweeting & face booking whist going through this ! Duncan Bannatyne was going in the same time too I tweeted him & wished him luck

how lovely is he !

with only having one good arm as the right elbow has been replaced the idea was to put this in the right hand, so I could still push myself up the bed with the left arm, this was still really painful. 

I got quite a few lovely messages from Theo, such lovely support, Theo always take the time to support others hes so caring.

This was about 10am Christmas Morning at mum & dad in laws making up for having none whist pregnant !

I was giddy the whole day, christmas dinner was made with so much from my husband & wonderful girls, the table was set & a four course fabulous meal was served, I had to rest & sit ~~~ I did as I was told for once, my christmas was made very special by some amazing people who really cared.

Love Shellybobbins xxxx